Solitude

Laugh, and the world laughs with you; Weep, and you weep alone. Sing, and the the hills answer; Sigh it is lost in the air.

My loneliness is my pain and weakness....

No one cares... Everything from hapiness is changing into sadness...

No one knows the real me .....

I'm hurt...

No one cares....

No one loves me..

It hurts me more....

My pain is growing.....

In the solitude of prayer... deep.....

Lost in the moments between weep and sleep....

Envy

Being Envy is being Jealous....

I'm just a normal girl. Then one day I was on this website, I saw this girl's profile and then I looked at her edited anime photos, after that I was amazed and I saw her badge to this website. That's when my life changed.

I was an unexperienced amature who joined that website, to edit anime pics, make new friends.

Lots of stuffs happened after that then on my birthday something bad happened on this very important day. After the events that happened I never went back to that website....

I became a normal girl again with normal life. However on summer that year I remembered about that website. I decided to come back and see what happened....

Lots of stuffs changed. Some of my friends weren't there anymore, and I regreted that very important day.......

My life changed once again. I became more involved and became more better than before...

I had new very nice friends, my life was so comfortable that I didn't want it to end.

I looked at YouTube and saw this AMVs / MEPs they were awesome!!!!!

I tried to make some too.... but I was too busy that I totally forgot about that website....

Lots of memories happened but it seem that I went back, however the website is demolished.

I was sad that I couldn't talk to my important friends....

My brother was Facebook I had an idea that maybe I can find them on Facebook and I did.

After that I started making AMVs / MEPs.

I looked back at my memories and my dream of becoming a mangaka.

Drawing. I need to improve drawing!!!!!!!.

I went back to drawing then I noticed that one of my friends at school is interested at drawings.

Her drawings are good however she needs some improvement.

I kinda wanted to help her but I also wanted to share some drawings with someone who likes sketches. I showed it to her, the drawing wasn't that good though.....

One day I emailed her she emailed back something about Piano stuffs... I replied she said Why do you think I envy you?.

I was shock, I mean why would someone envy me?

Everyone has a gift which is what we have. Were all different so be happy and be yourself.

Hidden Place Where Memories Hide

My past which made my life mysterious.....

Past hides somewhere were you can't see.

Memories are past, which are the past that you remind the most.

It can be sad, happy, lonely, and bad.

Your emotions are the strong will that makes you remind of that memory.

Memories will make you remember of the past, the important past that you'll never forget.

Bored

No one is here to talk to me....

I feel lonely and left alone.... none of my friends are online, no one is here to talk to...

I'm bored I don't know what to do....

I wish I just have an eternal happy life. Life is hard. Now I'm thinking about my memories, my past, which is making me have emotions.
I don't know what to do anymore I just hope for eternal happy life.

Butterfly Symphony

Butterfly come into light. Oh, what a beautiful sight. Forever you're free with your Symphony that makes me calm forever with thee.

woah!!!. I made a poem???. Never made one though O_O;;; . I guess my mind is opening now XDDDD . Poems are kinda hard to make.... but maybe I have "some" chance to make one if I just concentrate, and be open-minded, and of course be positive.

Butterflies are pretty, they're all unique which reminds me of us. Humans. Everyone has a gift and were all different, we like different stuffs, different personalities, and etc...

I wonder why I just like looking at butterfly pictures, but not seeing a butterfly in real-life.

I guess maybe I just don't like going out that much.....

We live, laugh, cry, make mistakes, get angry, but were still a human who doesn't know where were going to be in the future. Butterfly Symphony (?!) .

Imeem....

Imeem made me have problems....

Imeem was demolished and was bought by Myspace under 1 million....

and why didn't Myspace just buy Imeem and let be by itself (its cool having 2 websites, you know)

well since then I tried looking for my friends but I kinda couldn't except this very one day when I totally forgot that I got some of my friends email add, then that afternoon I decided opening my Yahoo acc and then I saw someone was online and it was one of my friends in Imeem it was Sandra-chan. She told me about the new Imeem (but not a real one though) and I joined it (http://www.imeeem.ning.com/), I saw some of my old friends in the old Imeem (which is the real Imeem). I thanked her. Then after some weeks there were problem on the new Imeem..... someone is complaining about the new one and so someone made a new Imeem (which is not the real one too...) and I joined it (http://www.i-meem.ning.com/), after signing up it said that the admin have to approve me if I can join and maybe I'll just wait for a few days. Well I still hope I find my special friends that I'm missing and I don't have their email add or anything that'll help.....

I hope peace will come back and change the stuffs that needs to be changed.

C-O-D-E-S O_O;;;;

CSS / HTML Codes are kinda hard.....

I have to learn how to use it but...... its very hard!!!!!

I'll try, because I want to change my blog theme and I kinda need it for some other websites....

well, some of my friends knows how to do it but I don't know how to do it.... and thats my problem. Can someone just teach me how to do it instead of learning it by myself which is harder than making AMVs / MEPs. Well I just I have to do it on my own but its kinda boring.... I need to motivated and just Never Give Up!.

I really hope I can do it.....

Christmas Gift?!

Christmas is ok....

but~

I got a money for Christmas!

~ O o O ~

XDDDD

now I can save it and buy the things that I like

on Christmas we went to Sacramento, CA

to visit our relatives, they were very nice  ~TT^TT~

some gave us gifts, some gave me money, one gave me a wallet of Aeropostale, and the others gave me clothes, and etc.....

when it was Christmas I was thinking about AMVs.... > 3 >

and I thought maybe I could make some someday ~ ^^ ~

then after that I was starting to think about my friends..... I wondered how are they doing?

I hope they're okay.... waaah!!!!!!~ I miss them  TT3TT  ....

I also miss some of my friends that I couldn't contact anymore...... I wished that I could still talk to them and contact them, and I was thinking of making dedicated AMVs / MEPs for my special friends ~ ^^ ~    I thought that was a great idea, but I also hope they'll like it and I can do a very good one.....

I hope you had a very nice Christmas!!!~~ ^^ ~~